I keep taking these career and major tests to find out what the fuck I should do with my life and they ask me what I’m good at and I find that every “skill” they ask about, I am average or below average and all the jobs and majors they suggest don’t appeal to me at all and I just don’t know what the fuck to do
can I just like be a professional blogger/traveller/reader/vegan/feminist/singer? that’s what I want to do with my life. But those aren’t like..real jobs. I feel like it would be better for me to just save the money and get a job doing something really fucking easy that’s impossible to fuck up where I don’t have to think about anything and then save up all my money and go travelling across the world and then when im like 26 i can just kill myself and be done with everything
see I really shouldn’t post that because I’m probably going to get messages that are like “oh no don’t think that way you’re still young just be patient blah blah blah” but ya know what shut the fuck up im not in a good mood okay
I was always one of the smartest in the class in elementary school. I won spelling bees and “battle of the books” competitions and “accelerated reader” competitions and in middle school I was put in the higher level math class and I got all A’s until I got a B from fucking Mr. Llaneza and if anybody that went to middle school with me is following me then you remember Mr. Llaneza. well yeah he basically ruined my fucking life because it was all downhill from there. I mean I did well the first few years of high school I guess but I got a C for the first time my freshman year in biology and I’m just a terrible procrastinator and eventually that procrastinating led to just giving the fuck up and I don’t know how to study and I’m not good at anything and I just don’t know what I want
I really wonder where I’ll be in 10 years. Seriously. Because I don’t even have any chances of like..marrying a rich man or something. I’ve never been in a relationship and I probably never will be because I can barely keep friendships and I can’t ever have children because I can’t be responsible for anything since I fuck everything up
it’s like I know I’ll never kill myself because I’m too much of a coward, but what will probably happen is I’ll end up in a mental hospital for a while and then I’ll spend the rest of my life being a disappointment. A professional disappointment. That’s the job for me.
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(8) Favourite Series 2 episode ♥ The Hounds of Baskerville